Welcome (But, Please Take Your Shoes Off First)

I received a letter from a past friend, the final line read:  you will never be happy.  After reading, deflated, hurt, defensive … all of these emotions clamored for attention within me.  Believing that friends will understand or at the very least, listen to my reasoning, I am surprised when declarations such as this example are bestowed to me.  I have not asked for approval; I answer questions asked knowing that others have an opinion.  Still, when wounding comments are made, I am taken by surprise.

I consider my friend; does she really accept that she knows the journey to happiness?  When entering a home, often there is a mat for wiping off the debris collected on the bottom of a visitor’s footwear.  Inviting understanding is not a request for advice. I sincerely shared with faith that my truth would be paid attention to.  I had opened a personal door, trusting that I could reveal authentic ideas, philosophy … values.  She made a judgment. 

I know that in the past, I have not always been a focused listener … I will do better in this regard.  Thoughtless remarks can be harmful.  This edict declaring my inability to be fulfilled soiled the beautiful welcome mat that I am weaving.   I did not respond to the letter.  A door within me has closed; I will intertwine colorful threads to restore the damage because I have the conviction that I am creating an honest tapestry - strands of experience that are worthy.   For now, I am rolling this mat up.